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It started snowing two days ago... Well, more like raining ice. For being so small and so beautiful, those ice pellets did hurt. Even now, sitting indoors, I recall the feeling of it as it hit my cheeks.
A sudden chill overwhelmed me, as I pulled my coat tightly around me. This cold weather... I don't think I'll ever get used to it. Imagine me visiting up north, and don't bother with living there. I laughed inwardly at the thought as I trudged around the yard, covered with glistening snow. I've always found winter to be so beautiful in its desolate appearance. I could just close my eyes and take in the solitude, letting myself fall into nature's embrace.
It was so peaceful... So peaceful that I thought I was alone in this world. I didn't know whether to smile or to cry. It was a depressing thought, but when have I never been like that?
"You'll catch a cold."
"Does it matter?" I retorted.
"Of course," he replied genuinely, and I noted the sound of his shoes pressed into the snow. Then he stopped, standing close... behind me, but I did not turn around to give him my acknowledgement. I don't recall how long we stood in the silence, but it bothered me. Not the silence, but his presence. I could feel his eyes on me, anticipating me next move or comment.
"Lately," he began in a contemplative tone, "your smiles have been different."
"Oh?" I don't know why I even bothered with that response.
"Yes."
I guess I can't pretend anymore. I can't hide behind these fake smiles... because, truthfully, I'm tired. But then, the real me... I don't know. That's something I'll figure out for myself; no one can tell me... but...
"Tell me," I turned back to him and stared straight into his eyes. We were friends, like everyone I've met, but with each one of them, I've always kept my distance. Whether trust is in question or just the fear of hurting or being hurt, it has been this way. I doubt anyone has noticed it, but sometimes I do question each relationship... "What am I to you?"
A sudden chill overwhelmed me, as I pulled my coat tightly around me. This cold weather... I don't think I'll ever get used to it. Imagine me visiting up north, and don't bother with living there. I laughed inwardly at the thought as I trudged around the yard, covered with glistening snow. I've always found winter to be so beautiful in its desolate appearance. I could just close my eyes and take in the solitude, letting myself fall into nature's embrace.
It was so peaceful... So peaceful that I thought I was alone in this world. I didn't know whether to smile or to cry. It was a depressing thought, but when have I never been like that?
"You'll catch a cold."
"Does it matter?" I retorted.
"Of course," he replied genuinely, and I noted the sound of his shoes pressed into the snow. Then he stopped, standing close... behind me, but I did not turn around to give him my acknowledgement. I don't recall how long we stood in the silence, but it bothered me. Not the silence, but his presence. I could feel his eyes on me, anticipating me next move or comment.
"Lately," he began in a contemplative tone, "your smiles have been different."
"Oh?" I don't know why I even bothered with that response.
"Yes."
I guess I can't pretend anymore. I can't hide behind these fake smiles... because, truthfully, I'm tired. But then, the real me... I don't know. That's something I'll figure out for myself; no one can tell me... but...
"Tell me," I turned back to him and stared straight into his eyes. We were friends, like everyone I've met, but with each one of them, I've always kept my distance. Whether trust is in question or just the fear of hurting or being hurt, it has been this way. I doubt anyone has noticed it, but sometimes I do question each relationship... "What am I to you?"
The sun will rise...
This morning when I woke up, I grabbed this particular CD -- "Whispers" by Trish Thuy Trang -- that I've only listened to maybe three times and played it in my car today. I'm not sure exactly why it came to my mind, but after I made it to the last song, the reason pretty much slapped me in the face. I've been listening to the song, "Goodbye" all day now.
o/` Time to say goodbye. So turn around and watch the sky and smile, don't cry. Cause everything will be all right, you'll see, we'll be so happy once again. In time the sun will rise. It's not the end, it's just goodbye... o/`
I've always said "see you later" to people because saying "good
Dundunduuuun...
Eehm, well I didn't expect to post again for another year or so, lol. But you can blame for tagging me! Hope everyone had a wonderful winter holiday! Let's begin!
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Needed a new journal entry.
So I was tired of seeing that really old entry up, so here's a new one. The next entry will be in another five years? Probably? Lol.
Just uploaded some Matantei Loki sketches. I'm addicted to MayuLoki at the moment, so that's all I've been drawing. Yeeeesh, I'm so lazy to color... 'cause you know that's a lot more work, and I'm just... uber lazy... *glances over to her list of fanfiction to work on* Yeah... my thoughts and plots are all jumbled up together right now.
Anyway time to go relax... aka nap?
Hrm...
Yeah... I've been away from this place for a long time now. Lots of things have happened, but I'm finding solace in drawing and writing again. Please enjoy the recently submitted pieces. I shall get around to coloring them one day... Thanks. -kuro
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