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"Ne... I'm really tired," my voice spoke barely above a whisper. I collapsed in the chair and threw myself over the table top, doing my best not to breakdown in front of my family.
I remember telling one of my sisters once, when she was hurt by a guy, 'Guys come and go, but family will always be there for you...' And right now, I just wish...
"What's wrong, Kuro-chan?" I looked up and saw my cousin, Namida, smiling sweetly with a plate of cookies. She placed it in front of me, but I was too frustrated to give them a second thought.
She sat down across from me as I grumbled, "I think... I want to take a long vacation..."
A frown formed on her delicate face, and I felt guilty for bringing my problems to her. "Is... Shinjou treating you right?" she asked unsurely and worriedly.
"Of course!" I answered, mildly surprised at her assumption. "He's a wonderful husband..." After my outburst, I realized, "I... don't think I'm a very good wife..."
"Don't be silly!"
"I'm not being silly! I'm not silly this time!" I just couldn't believe it... At this stupid moment, I started to cry. "Everything is great... It's going so well...
"No... No... I live in a world of lies... This illusion I've built for myself because of my insecurity... The pressure, the stress that I've wanted to escape from, they've caught up with me here. I don't think I can handle it anymore...
"I'm a curse... I just bring misery and pain to others. I'll just end up hurting them... I wish they could see that and just... leave me in their past..."
I remember telling one of my sisters once, when she was hurt by a guy, 'Guys come and go, but family will always be there for you...' And right now, I just wish...
"What's wrong, Kuro-chan?" I looked up and saw my cousin, Namida, smiling sweetly with a plate of cookies. She placed it in front of me, but I was too frustrated to give them a second thought.
She sat down across from me as I grumbled, "I think... I want to take a long vacation..."
A frown formed on her delicate face, and I felt guilty for bringing my problems to her. "Is... Shinjou treating you right?" she asked unsurely and worriedly.
"Of course!" I answered, mildly surprised at her assumption. "He's a wonderful husband..." After my outburst, I realized, "I... don't think I'm a very good wife..."
"Don't be silly!"
"I'm not being silly! I'm not silly this time!" I just couldn't believe it... At this stupid moment, I started to cry. "Everything is great... It's going so well...
"No... No... I live in a world of lies... This illusion I've built for myself because of my insecurity... The pressure, the stress that I've wanted to escape from, they've caught up with me here. I don't think I can handle it anymore...
"I'm a curse... I just bring misery and pain to others. I'll just end up hurting them... I wish they could see that and just... leave me in their past..."
The sun will rise...
This morning when I woke up, I grabbed this particular CD -- "Whispers" by Trish Thuy Trang -- that I've only listened to maybe three times and played it in my car today. I'm not sure exactly why it came to my mind, but after I made it to the last song, the reason pretty much slapped me in the face. I've been listening to the song, "Goodbye" all day now.
o/` Time to say goodbye. So turn around and watch the sky and smile, don't cry. Cause everything will be all right, you'll see, we'll be so happy once again. In time the sun will rise. It's not the end, it's just goodbye... o/`
I've always said "see you later" to people because saying "good
Dundunduuuun...
Eehm, well I didn't expect to post again for another year or so, lol. But you can blame for tagging me! Hope everyone had a wonderful winter holiday! Let's begin!
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Needed a new journal entry.
So I was tired of seeing that really old entry up, so here's a new one. The next entry will be in another five years? Probably? Lol.
Just uploaded some Matantei Loki sketches. I'm addicted to MayuLoki at the moment, so that's all I've been drawing. Yeeeesh, I'm so lazy to color... 'cause you know that's a lot more work, and I'm just... uber lazy... *glances over to her list of fanfiction to work on* Yeah... my thoughts and plots are all jumbled up together right now.
Anyway time to go relax... aka nap?
Hrm...
Yeah... I've been away from this place for a long time now. Lots of things have happened, but I'm finding solace in drawing and writing again. Please enjoy the recently submitted pieces. I shall get around to coloring them one day... Thanks. -kuro
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