.: Deprivation

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Can't sleep. Well... sleep early, wake up early. That's more like the current situation.

Sometimes I wonder if I'm okay. Like physically, I am. I'm not ill, nothing's in pain... but maybe my chest, my heart. It feels heavy sometimes, but that might be due to mental stress.

Right, so mentally, I feel... like... a boiling tea kettle. Imagine that, I haven't had tea in... over a week now.

I think I should stop. I should stop, let myself be purged. For sure, it's the only way I'll definitely stop. Will I regret it? Probably. So maybe I shouldn't. I don't want to do something I'll regret.

I hate that.

And I don't expect anything anymore. It'll be less disappointing, less painful.

People come and go. Just come and go. And those you truly care about, it hurts. It hurts to the point of tears. I want to be strong, but I'll never be strong enough to stop the tears.

Just a hug, just a whisper, "Ev'rything'll be okay. It'll be okay because I'm here. I'll protect you. Just depend on me, even for a little while."

Then I'll close my eyes and feel safe, "Okay, just a little while. I'll stop pretending to be strong and rely on you... just a little while."
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