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Can't sleep. Well... sleep early, wake up early. That's more like the current situation.
Sometimes I wonder if I'm okay. Like physically, I am. I'm not ill, nothing's in pain... but maybe my chest, my heart. It feels heavy sometimes, but that might be due to mental stress.
Right, so mentally, I feel... like... a boiling tea kettle. Imagine that, I haven't had tea in... over a week now.
I think I should stop. I should stop, let myself be purged. For sure, it's the only way I'll definitely stop. Will I regret it? Probably. So maybe I shouldn't. I don't want to do something I'll regret.
I hate that.
And I don't expect anything anymore. It'll be less disappointing, less painful.
People come and go. Just come and go. And those you truly care about, it hurts. It hurts to the point of tears. I want to be strong, but I'll never be strong enough to stop the tears.
Just a hug, just a whisper, "Ev'rything'll be okay. It'll be okay because I'm here. I'll protect you. Just depend on me, even for a little while."
Then I'll close my eyes and feel safe, "Okay, just a little while. I'll stop pretending to be strong and rely on you... just a little while."
Sometimes I wonder if I'm okay. Like physically, I am. I'm not ill, nothing's in pain... but maybe my chest, my heart. It feels heavy sometimes, but that might be due to mental stress.
Right, so mentally, I feel... like... a boiling tea kettle. Imagine that, I haven't had tea in... over a week now.
I think I should stop. I should stop, let myself be purged. For sure, it's the only way I'll definitely stop. Will I regret it? Probably. So maybe I shouldn't. I don't want to do something I'll regret.
I hate that.
And I don't expect anything anymore. It'll be less disappointing, less painful.
People come and go. Just come and go. And those you truly care about, it hurts. It hurts to the point of tears. I want to be strong, but I'll never be strong enough to stop the tears.
Just a hug, just a whisper, "Ev'rything'll be okay. It'll be okay because I'm here. I'll protect you. Just depend on me, even for a little while."
Then I'll close my eyes and feel safe, "Okay, just a little while. I'll stop pretending to be strong and rely on you... just a little while."
The sun will rise...
This morning when I woke up, I grabbed this particular CD -- "Whispers" by Trish Thuy Trang -- that I've only listened to maybe three times and played it in my car today. I'm not sure exactly why it came to my mind, but after I made it to the last song, the reason pretty much slapped me in the face. I've been listening to the song, "Goodbye" all day now.
o/` Time to say goodbye. So turn around and watch the sky and smile, don't cry. Cause everything will be all right, you'll see, we'll be so happy once again. In time the sun will rise. It's not the end, it's just goodbye... o/`
I've always said "see you later" to people because saying "good
Dundunduuuun...
Eehm, well I didn't expect to post again for another year or so, lol. But you can blame for tagging me! Hope everyone had a wonderful winter holiday! Let's begin!
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Needed a new journal entry.
So I was tired of seeing that really old entry up, so here's a new one. The next entry will be in another five years? Probably? Lol.
Just uploaded some Matantei Loki sketches. I'm addicted to MayuLoki at the moment, so that's all I've been drawing. Yeeeesh, I'm so lazy to color... 'cause you know that's a lot more work, and I'm just... uber lazy... *glances over to her list of fanfiction to work on* Yeah... my thoughts and plots are all jumbled up together right now.
Anyway time to go relax... aka nap?
Hrm...
Yeah... I've been away from this place for a long time now. Lots of things have happened, but I'm finding solace in drawing and writing again. Please enjoy the recently submitted pieces. I shall get around to coloring them one day... Thanks. -kuro
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